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"When I say, "I am a Christian"

"When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin’.'"
I'm whispering "I was lost,"
Now I'm found and forgiven.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are far too visible but,
God believes I'm worth it.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou.
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow.

My Testimonial © Iciameke

Eight Months Down Its The Finnal Stretch

Just had to let you know that Saturday marked eight months down just a few more weeks to go. All I can say is that I agree with the song writer says:
"God's grace and mercy has brought us through
We living each moment because of you
And I want to thank you and praise you too,
Cause your grace and mercy has brought us through"

Good Bye Golden. Hallo Damons...

I've always been extremely proud of my previous surname GOLDEN and I've been able to hold on to it for 2 and a half more years after I got married. However its been such a problem to have to show my Identification Document with my marriage certificate when ever the need arises that I've decided to get my ID sorted out once and for all. So finally my sister in-law and I has gone to apply for our new I D's (one which will actually show my not so new surname.) My hubby's surname is Damons and I know that I should be grateful cause I've heard of really ugly surnames like Draaghoender etc. so Damons is honestly not a bad surname. However I must admit I don't think any surname will ever match up to GOLDEN. I've always known that I've been using a borrowed surname, but nothing quiet prepared me for the day I'll finally have to let go of it. To crown it all as if loosing the surname was not bad enough I've had to see how my sister in law gets to take her old surname off her old ID in exchange for my GOLDEN all in one day...
Its been great to have been known as Miss Golden for 25 years and after 2 and a half years of being married I now realize its time to finally let go and enjoy my exciting new phase of life - The one where I am known as Mrs Verna Damons. Its reasuring to know that I've traded in the surname for someone whom I esteem more costlier than gold - the one man on earth who makes me feel day after day that to him I'm more beutiful and precious than diamonds. Good thing I think the world of Beulah (my sister in law) and of all the girls I know I'm glad that she's the one getting to live the rest of her wonderful life with my brother on the surname God planned for her from the start - Mrs Beulah Golden - I know for reasons of her own she loves her new surname so enjoy the surname I got to borrow for 25 years.

By the way I finished my book this morning and I have to agree with the Max Lucado: "Perfect people with spotless pasts and problem-free futures won't like this book. The rest of us will find much to love in it. Thanks Robin, for sharing your story and reminding us that the real hero in any happy ending is God."

The Far Side Of The Sea...

Psalm 139
1O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.
2Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.
5Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
14I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
17How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
19Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?
22I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.
23Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

My little encouragement:

A pen pal of mine (TC) sent me a picture of the sea and on it verses 9-11 a few years ago and its made this Psalm mean soooo much more to me. A few weeks ago our Pastor G Martin read verses 13-16 about how God saw and knew us from before we were formed in our mothers wombs - I never saw it that way before. When I read it a few times today I was not sure which verses to take and what to leave so I used the whole Psalm.

INSIDE MY HEART

My book for this week. I've had this book for a while now and this week I decided to read it. Its sooooo nice to read about how Robin McGraw talks about being a supportive wife and "home executive" as if its one of The most glorified jobs there is. I suppose if you lucky enough to be doing something you love then it doesn't matter what it is - you will love it...

I guess because I'm home three months before my due date I've been feeling like I'm wasting time laying in bed when I could have taken more time out after the birth of our baby. However I do realize that its a much needed rest for both the safety of our little one and myself. Laying on my back is giving me allot more time to think about if I'm really happy when it comes all the aspects of my life (I know the man God chose for me is pretty close to the perfect husband), however I'm not so sure if I can say the same about the work I do and my future. I feel like I'm at a cross roads and its time I start making important choices about what I want for the rest of my life. It makes me sad to hear of woman who reaches their 40's, 50's and even 60's (especially those who has been house wives / suck in dead end jobs) and they depressed because they feel like they've waisted the years God has given them. I'm only 27 years old and today I can still choose not to be one of them someday.

Its always been my dream to be a supportive wife and stay at home mother, but at the same time when my children leave home someday I don't want to feel like I have no life, because I made them my life (just before I got married my mom told me we raised you to be another man's wife someday and I must say they've done a splendid job). I know the day will come when my children will be married and that day I want to be proud on a job well done. I would like to then know that, that part of my life is over and I that its time to move on to the next phase of my life. I also don't want to feel like I was stagnated in my career that was taking me nowhere. That my Job description has not changed since starting my career. When I'm old and grey I want to look back and be proud of being that supportive wife, a mom whose been there for my children as well as to be proud of my own achievements in life.

I'm beginning to realize that since we starting a family its more than just Cecil D that I need to look out for. In the book Robin also speaks about how her mom passed on at an early age, because she put every other person in her life before herself. It made me realize the importance of taking care of yourself so you can take care of your loved ones. For examples: I know that my family has a history of a few chronic ailments, so I'm going to start taking better care of myself in order to avoid getting those ailments myself. If that means going for tests to make sure that I do not have them as well as decrease my chances of getting them - then that's exactly what I need to do. Prevention is better than cure. I'll also have to make a plan to get in some exercise again I have not done that since before I got married - Good thing we have ladies gym's these days and since my medical aid covers a huge portion of it I guess there is no excuses anymore.

Wise words from WMB: "Without A Vision The People Perish". While I've got no where to go and nothing to do I plan to think about what my passion in life is, make it my vision and work towards is...

Bye Bye Daddy

My dad left for Trinidad and Tobago this morning and we miss him already. After being home and in bed all week my body was in a bit of shock when we had to be up and out in the wee hours of the morning to see my him off at the airport. We live about 10min from the airport that because its sooo cold it was fairly dark for that time of the morning. Being a very cold Sunday morning our complex was still very quiet since and I can't remember seeing any cars on the road whilst being on our way there. When arrived I surprised that it was soooo difficult to find parking and inside there was people everywhere.

I know my dad pops into my blog on occasion so I wish him all the best with his trip. I remember from when we were very little before a long trip he would always pray that we would be a blessing to the people we went to and that God will take us there safely and bring us back. Well that's my prayer for you and while you gone Cecil and I will take good care of your SJONGOU (Hahaha). I believe they speak Creole over there so dad bon lanwit.

I WISH I WAS A GLOW WORM