Asenath keeping me busy

See what's keeping me busy (hahaha). I take my hat off to all stay at home mom's I'm slowly realizing being a stay at home mom is a 24h job. For such a little person she sure changes allot, but I won't complain I'd much rather do her washing than go to work...

NEW ADDITION TO OUR FAMILY

Hi
Here's a long overdue update.

Asenath meaning "She's her father's"
Hadessah meaning "She who took a long time to come"
Damons was born on (Spring day) Monday the 1 September 2008 at 09:10. She weighed 2.88kg and was 50cm long. Apart from the little sleep we getting she's a real pleasure to have around. We must have done something right because she must be the sweetest little girl I know.

7 DAYS TO GO

At first you moved,
only a little.
I could always find you,
right in the middle.

As time went on,
you really started to grow.
It wasn't a whole lot,
in fact, it was rather slow.

Before I knew it,
you were all over the place.
It kind of felt like,
you were running a race.

People would ask me,
if, you were a boy or a girl.
I would sit and wonder,
if, you would have curls.

There are so many things,
I really want to know.
But, you are hidden inside,
so the answers don't show.

How much will you weigh?
How tall will you be?
What color is your hair?
Will you even like me?

I hope and pray,
you feel like you belong.
I never want you to feel,
like you are alone.

Your Dad and I,
planned you from the start.
You, my dear child,
were made straight from our hearts.

In about a week or so,
I'll meet you, for the first time.
For you are the product,
of your Dad's love and mine.

There will be no one like you,
not any place in the world.
It really doesn't matter,
if you are a boy or a girl.

We are both so happy,
that you even exist.
The gender doesn't matter.
you'll be hard to resist.

I hope I make you proud,
that I am your mother everyday.
Because, you have filled my dreams,
in more ways, than words can say.

It won't be long before,
I can look you in the eyes.
I can feel the excitement growing,
I know I'm going to cry.

Don't worry my angel,
those tears will be of joy.
It won't matter to me,
if you are a girl or a boy.

Counting The Weeks As Days

This is specially for Adele and all the rest who's been waiting for me to post a picture of my OH SOOO PREGNANT SELF... Today is our 2ND last Sunday as a couple. The excitement is building up in the family. There's no way baba won't know her dad's voice when she arrives cause his constantly talking to her. Gramp's looking forward to push baba around in the house in her baby bath as he done with us, Grams already brushing up on the baby songs she remembers. My brother (John) can't stop talking about what his going to do with his niece/nephew when he/she arrives and auntie Beulah can't wait to start playing doll...

We counting the month's as days now...

Less Than A Month To Go

Baba Update

So we went to the doctor again yesterday. Baba now weighs 1.9kg and only has about 4 more weeks to go before eta... My doctor is on holiday (Gone to Hong Kong) so his made arrangements for me to see one of his associates at the hospital. Every time we go to my doctor we find it quiet fascinating to hear other mommies babies hearts beat (the machine is not that far from the waiting room, but we can't see anything. Anyway the doctor I saw yesterday put me on a baby heart monitoring machine and it took him quiet some time to find the babies’ heart beat - Can you imagine the look on our faces when we heard nothing. After about 5min we heard kicking every few seconds but baba was laying sooo funny that we could not hear find a heart beat. After a few minutes feeling around he finally found and everything is perfect. Now my only concern is the fact that I'm having endless toothaches which is causing earache - it was sooo bad last night that I was up all night. To crown it all I made a few calls this morning apparently no dentist is allowed to help me until after baba is born, 'cause I'm not allowed any medication or anaesthetic.

At 33 Week

"When I say, "I am a Christian"

"When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin’.'"
I'm whispering "I was lost,"
Now I'm found and forgiven.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are far too visible but,
God believes I'm worth it.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say, "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou.
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow.

My Testimonial © Iciameke

Eight Months Down Its The Finnal Stretch

Just had to let you know that Saturday marked eight months down just a few more weeks to go. All I can say is that I agree with the song writer says:
"God's grace and mercy has brought us through
We living each moment because of you
And I want to thank you and praise you too,
Cause your grace and mercy has brought us through"

Good Bye Golden. Hallo Damons...

I've always been extremely proud of my previous surname GOLDEN and I've been able to hold on to it for 2 and a half more years after I got married. However its been such a problem to have to show my Identification Document with my marriage certificate when ever the need arises that I've decided to get my ID sorted out once and for all. So finally my sister in-law and I has gone to apply for our new I D's (one which will actually show my not so new surname.) My hubby's surname is Damons and I know that I should be grateful cause I've heard of really ugly surnames like Draaghoender etc. so Damons is honestly not a bad surname. However I must admit I don't think any surname will ever match up to GOLDEN. I've always known that I've been using a borrowed surname, but nothing quiet prepared me for the day I'll finally have to let go of it. To crown it all as if loosing the surname was not bad enough I've had to see how my sister in law gets to take her old surname off her old ID in exchange for my GOLDEN all in one day...
Its been great to have been known as Miss Golden for 25 years and after 2 and a half years of being married I now realize its time to finally let go and enjoy my exciting new phase of life - The one where I am known as Mrs Verna Damons. Its reasuring to know that I've traded in the surname for someone whom I esteem more costlier than gold - the one man on earth who makes me feel day after day that to him I'm more beutiful and precious than diamonds. Good thing I think the world of Beulah (my sister in law) and of all the girls I know I'm glad that she's the one getting to live the rest of her wonderful life with my brother on the surname God planned for her from the start - Mrs Beulah Golden - I know for reasons of her own she loves her new surname so enjoy the surname I got to borrow for 25 years.

By the way I finished my book this morning and I have to agree with the Max Lucado: "Perfect people with spotless pasts and problem-free futures won't like this book. The rest of us will find much to love in it. Thanks Robin, for sharing your story and reminding us that the real hero in any happy ending is God."

The Far Side Of The Sea...

Psalm 139
1O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.
2Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.
5Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
14I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
17How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
19Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?
22I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.
23Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

My little encouragement:

A pen pal of mine (TC) sent me a picture of the sea and on it verses 9-11 a few years ago and its made this Psalm mean soooo much more to me. A few weeks ago our Pastor G Martin read verses 13-16 about how God saw and knew us from before we were formed in our mothers wombs - I never saw it that way before. When I read it a few times today I was not sure which verses to take and what to leave so I used the whole Psalm.

INSIDE MY HEART

My book for this week. I've had this book for a while now and this week I decided to read it. Its sooooo nice to read about how Robin McGraw talks about being a supportive wife and "home executive" as if its one of The most glorified jobs there is. I suppose if you lucky enough to be doing something you love then it doesn't matter what it is - you will love it...

I guess because I'm home three months before my due date I've been feeling like I'm wasting time laying in bed when I could have taken more time out after the birth of our baby. However I do realize that its a much needed rest for both the safety of our little one and myself. Laying on my back is giving me allot more time to think about if I'm really happy when it comes all the aspects of my life (I know the man God chose for me is pretty close to the perfect husband), however I'm not so sure if I can say the same about the work I do and my future. I feel like I'm at a cross roads and its time I start making important choices about what I want for the rest of my life. It makes me sad to hear of woman who reaches their 40's, 50's and even 60's (especially those who has been house wives / suck in dead end jobs) and they depressed because they feel like they've waisted the years God has given them. I'm only 27 years old and today I can still choose not to be one of them someday.

Its always been my dream to be a supportive wife and stay at home mother, but at the same time when my children leave home someday I don't want to feel like I have no life, because I made them my life (just before I got married my mom told me we raised you to be another man's wife someday and I must say they've done a splendid job). I know the day will come when my children will be married and that day I want to be proud on a job well done. I would like to then know that, that part of my life is over and I that its time to move on to the next phase of my life. I also don't want to feel like I was stagnated in my career that was taking me nowhere. That my Job description has not changed since starting my career. When I'm old and grey I want to look back and be proud of being that supportive wife, a mom whose been there for my children as well as to be proud of my own achievements in life.

I'm beginning to realize that since we starting a family its more than just Cecil D that I need to look out for. In the book Robin also speaks about how her mom passed on at an early age, because she put every other person in her life before herself. It made me realize the importance of taking care of yourself so you can take care of your loved ones. For examples: I know that my family has a history of a few chronic ailments, so I'm going to start taking better care of myself in order to avoid getting those ailments myself. If that means going for tests to make sure that I do not have them as well as decrease my chances of getting them - then that's exactly what I need to do. Prevention is better than cure. I'll also have to make a plan to get in some exercise again I have not done that since before I got married - Good thing we have ladies gym's these days and since my medical aid covers a huge portion of it I guess there is no excuses anymore.

Wise words from WMB: "Without A Vision The People Perish". While I've got no where to go and nothing to do I plan to think about what my passion in life is, make it my vision and work towards is...

Bye Bye Daddy

My dad left for Trinidad and Tobago this morning and we miss him already. After being home and in bed all week my body was in a bit of shock when we had to be up and out in the wee hours of the morning to see my him off at the airport. We live about 10min from the airport that because its sooo cold it was fairly dark for that time of the morning. Being a very cold Sunday morning our complex was still very quiet since and I can't remember seeing any cars on the road whilst being on our way there. When arrived I surprised that it was soooo difficult to find parking and inside there was people everywhere.

I know my dad pops into my blog on occasion so I wish him all the best with his trip. I remember from when we were very little before a long trip he would always pray that we would be a blessing to the people we went to and that God will take us there safely and bring us back. Well that's my prayer for you and while you gone Cecil and I will take good care of your SJONGOU (Hahaha). I believe they speak Creole over there so dad bon lanwit.

I WISH I WAS A GLOW WORM

My Birthday

Today is my 27Th Birthday. For some reason I'm in denial about my age - must be because I'm getting sooooo old. My hubby spoilt me to bits all day long and my family arranged a mini party for me. Thanks for all the birthday wishes from all my friends and family.

Thanks Sis Beryl I loved your birthday card you sent me.

BABA INDABA

Hi
I'm pregnant exactly 7 month's and 1 week to the day and I can't even begin to tell you how blessed I feel. Today we went to our 1st Baba Indaba. I think the daddy to be and I was more excited than most of the kiddies we saw. Up until day because of my past we have not bought anything yet, so today we went a bit crazy with the baby shopping. I guess you will never have everything your baby needs since there is so much out there to buy. Needless to say we both exhausted to I can't wait to jump into bed and await my birthday tomorrow.

Hmmm

You Like Names that Are Retro and Fashionable

You like names that are from the past but becoming modern again. Names with a strong history are very appealing to you. You're a big believer in giving children very adult sounding names. You're not a fan of nicknames or newfangled spellings. Some female names you might like: Audrey, Emma, Fiona, Georgia, Isabelle, Naomi, Rosemary, and Veronica Some male names you might like: Brendan, Colin, Ethan, Jared, Kenneth, Martin, and Nathaniel

What Kind of Names Do You Like?

HAPPY FATHERS DAY

How my dad was made

God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew His masterpiece was complete,
And so,

He called it ... CECIL - My Dad

~~Author Unknown.~~

HOME TILL BABA COMES

So my hubby is back from the Cape and more homesick than ever before. Apart from getting home extremely tired his on top of the world. However instead of homesick being put at ease for a while, talking about moving to Cape Town is all he talks about these day... I love the Cape - TO VISIT. However staying there is a whole different story altogether.

As far as our little miracle goes at the beginning of this month my hubby has had to make a between having me work till the bitter end and me going off NOW so I can get as much rest as I can possible get so this baba does not come mush sooner than supposed to. So as of Tuesday I've been home till baba arrives. So far I'm loving it however what does a person when you on bed rest so you don't get board? A few months ago I started reading a series written by Karen Kingsburry on The Baxter Family, but there was a book missing in the 2ND part of the series that I never had so I never completed it. So since last week Tuesday I read another book by the same author. This week I got the missing book so I've been glued to it and the nice thing is I still have about 5 to 6 books to go.

Back At Work

So I'm back at work for five weeks then I'll be on bed rest until my baby arrives. Its a major struggle to get up in the mornings and I'm often the cause of my darling hubby getting to work 5 to 10min late. Thus far his been a real sweetheart. He often teases me by saying I'm like a car. He wakes me before he gets out of bed (he calls that starting the car) Then he goes to take his shower while I pluck the courage together to get up (he calls that idling) then I get up (He says that's my take off). Because his up before me in the mornings and by the time its time to go to work I have my cereal, my lunch, 2 fruit and a snack ready and and waiting for me.

Almost everyone at work is glad to have me back and genuinely concerned about the well being of both my baby and I. And I must say it feels good when management shows that they care in spite of all my absenteeism - makes me feel like I'm not just another number, but that they truly value me. However I said almost everyone, because I'm sure one of my colleagues is making it very clear that she not happy at all with all the attention I'm getting. She makes comments under her breath all the time about me and what I believe and stand for, but for some reason I've developed this calmness about her. Some how her comments has become like water off a duck's back to me (Thank God) cause in the past I've always felt the need to take her on. In a way I feel sorry for her because when you listen to her you realize that she's a very unhappy person within herself that is why she treats everyone around her the way she does. So my best weapon for her would have to be with love and much prayer - as we all know LOVE CONQUERORS ALL THINGS...
An Eye for an Eye 38"You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.' 39But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. 40And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. 41If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. 42Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
Love for Enemies 43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighborh and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

My hubby is gone "home" (don't like to use that word cause even though he may be from the Cape since his moved to Johannesburg and bought a house here - this has become his home away from his mother's home) Anyway Cecil's closest cousin (Wilma) is getting married today and because of all my pregnancy complications we have jointly decided that I should give the wedding a miss. When I stepped into our house last night it felt eastramly empty and quiet. Thank goodness I did not have to be home allone al weekend - I'm with my mom and dad for the weekend so I don't have to be home alone and I must say I miss him tremendously.

"To the world you may just be one person, but to me you are the world"

Music

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are reflective and complex. You are intellectual to the point of being cerebral. You are very open to new experiences, and even more open to new ideas and theories. Wisdom and personal accomplishment are important to you. You are naturally sophisticated. You are drawn to art, especially art by independent artists. You are likely to be financially well off... and not because you were born that way.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

Not Gloating Just Greatfull

Today I've been carrying our little miracle inside of me for exactly 6 months. I know I may sound like (a baary) as if I'm the 1st person to have a baby, but I just can't seem help myself. I must admit before I got married I was one of those people who used to get irritated with pregnant woman who complained about each and every little ache and pain they felt while being pregnant. I used to think you pregnant so who told you that you won't feel uncomfortable, irritated and sore most of the time. I would agree with people who said "Pregnancy is a condition not a decease"

However my opinion has changed in the last two years. I've learnt that we are not all the same. I've learnt that every little pain (I may feel I can handle) just might be a contraction. That a little infection could land me in hospital and something small in my eyes could just be huge in a doctor's eyes. I've learnt that its okay not to come home and clean the house everyday, that the occasional little rest can take you a long way, that its okay if my hubby does the dishes at night and that I don't have to feel bad when he doesn't want me to cook so I can get a little extra rest (even if it means his having bread and tea for dinner.)

Even though by faith this will be my first child - this baby is not the first angle I carry inside of me. Infact its baby number 3 and don't think for one moment that thus far its been smooth sailing - I've been in hospital once and bed rest twice (combined its been about a month), but we still hanging in there. So when I go on about the months God has kept us safely together its not because I'm gloating but because I see each and every month as a huge mile stone. I see God's grace and mercy night after night when the light gets turned off to sleep and I can still feel our baby moving inside of me...


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A SECRET I WANT TO SHARE

I just had one of the most informative hour's of my life. For 1 hour today I've been listening to 3 very inspiring woman talk about how everyone can improve the quality of their lives. They spoke about the importance of loving yourself, thinking positive, setting goals for yourself and forgiveness. I know I've heard it all before, but I guess it is the way the message was put across. I come from a very strong religious background and in my circle of friends we seldom talk about reading any other books - apart from our spiritual books. These ladies spoke about one book in particular its called "THE SECRET" I love reading in general and with all my bed rest I have the time to slot in a book or 10 before baby arrives. I'm currently reading two Karen Kingsburry series's one about the Baxter Family and the other The Forever Faithful Series. However I would like to get the book as well - There's a saying that goes eat the chicken and throw away the bones and I recon: I have the best spiritual books and tapes any human being could ever want and if this book can improve the quality of my natural life why not give it a shot - what do I stand to loose...

A Motto To Live By

We live in an awesome world.
Make everyday an awesome day.
Live simply.
Love generously.
Care deeply.
Speak kindly.
And Leave the rest to God.

Off to doctor again...

I must be off to the doctor again today and I must admit I've begun to get very lazy being at home.

Dedication On Mothers Day

Since it was mothers day on Sunday I thought I'd dedicate one of my most loved songs to my mom. In many ways this song is sooooo true, I guess only my mom will truly understand. I've often sung it to her around the house, but I could never remember all the word to the song. Momma I want you to know I mean every word of this song

I THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TO KNOW

THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TO KNOW
ALL THOSE NIGHTS YOU PACED THE FLOOR
PRAYING THAT I WOULD MAKE IT HOME ALRIGHT,
BELIEVING IN GOD THAT HE WOULD SOMEDAY SAVE MY SOUL
WELL HE DID, JUST THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TOO KNOW.

THEN I THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TO KNOW
ALL THOSE PRAYERS YOU PRAYED FOR ME,
NEVER A-ONE FELL TO THE GROUND, I KNOW
SOMETIMES IT LOOK LIKE I WAS A MILLION MILES FROM GRACE
BUT HE ANSWERED YOUR PRAYERS, JUST THOUGHT YOU'D LIKE TOO KNOW.

CHORUS

OH MOMMA I WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU,
PLEASE FORGIVE MY FOR ALL THE TIMES I BROKE YOUR HEART
EVERY TEAR YOU CRIED FOR ME, DREW ME CLOSER TOO BEING FREE, AND I WANT TOO THANK YOU, JUST THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TOO KNOW.

THEN I THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TOO KNOW
THAT I WISH I COULD LIVE MY LIFE AGAIN,
IF I COULD, I WOULD SURELY MAKE AMENDS, AND IF I COULD HELP MY BROTHER, A NEW LIFE TO DISCOVER, OH I WOULD,
JUST THOUGHT YOU'LD LIKE TOO KNOW.



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Back too bed AGAIN

Hi
So I'm home again for the week. On Monday I was not doing too well so I went to see the doctor on Tuesday Morning. Turns out baba and I need some bed rest. Daddy is being very nice watching me like a hark even took me to my mom so there is more eyes to watch over me and do the walking for me.

Other than that I'm doing just fine. I know what we having now, but I'll keep it to myself until the baby is born. We even have a name for baba - we definitely want to have a Hebrew name with a meaning that pertains to the him/her.

Still Hanging In There

We've made it through another 3 weeks and we still doing fine. Today marks exactly 5 months and I can't wait for the 29th April cause not only is it a very special day on the Damons calendar (The day Cecil and I got engaged), but it will also be the day that I find out if we having a little Boy or a little Girl. Right now I just want a strong healthy baby and though I know the daddy would be over the moon with a little Girl he speaks allot of having a little Boy.

Back To Work

Tomorrow will be my 1st day back at work in 3 weeks after being in hospital and recuperating. I sooooooooo don't look forward to going back - Much as I dislike bed rest I hate getting up early just as much.